There was a big mirror in the labor and delivery room. I could have watched Elise being born. Now, I wish I would have looked. At the time, however, it seemed like a bad idea.
First of all, it seemed a little impractical. I was squeezing my eyes shut tight with every push, so I wouldn't have seen much anyway. But aside from that, I was terribly afraid that I'd see something go wrong. That I'd watch my vagina rip open or something. I was in so much pain, I didn't know exactly what was going on down there and I didn't want to.
But now that I know everything turned out okay, I wish I could have seen her be born.
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